Tolerance

This heart beat pounds…
Prompts me “I’m alive“…
What’s the point of trying
When I live just to survive
My life has chewed me up
Spat me in the dirt
I struggle each day to move one step
Yet all I feel is hurt
Let down by a God
Society, government too
I don’t know how long I can walk
When I don’t yearn to make it through
I get so tired my face aches
From trying not to cry
There’s a niggling voice in my head
That encourages me to try
“Take each day and take no more
As there’s nothing either side
To die in a life, empty of effort
Would be a waste if  never tried“
But it’s so hard when everyday
You’re dead before you wake
Give, give give in everything
Yet they only seem to take
I don’t see the point now
Of breathing a vital poison
I never feel alive enough
To make my life arousin
sigh…
Maybe I’ll wake tomorrow
Bright eyed, vital I’ll be
Don’t hold your breath dear reader
We’ll just have to wait and see…